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What do I really want to DO in life ?
What kind of GAME do I want to play ?
What is a really worthwhile GOAL or PURPOSE ?

Are there any THREATS to me ? ....  to my ENJOYMENT in life ?

What SKILLS and ABILITY do I actually have ?

Is there a REASON or higher purpose to my life ?
Is there a Natural or Universal Intelligence guiding life ?.... for me to align with ?

What do I really KNOW ?..... Do I really know anything ?

What can I base my life on ?

Are my ideas just illusion ?..... How can I tell if I am deluded ?

What can I believe ? ..... What can I trust ?

How do I decide what I want ?

What is existence ? what is life ? where do I really start ?

Can we ever really answer these questions ?

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Let me start by assuming the best
EVERYTHING IN LIFE IS PERFECT
Nothing needs changing.
I am not needed to decide or DO anything
Everything is here for my benefit
There are no threats, everything is designed for my enjoyment.

how far does that go ?
what would be infinitely enjoyable for me ?
The world is designed for me ?

what enjoyments do I aspire to ?
what is possible in the world ... for me ?

I would have to start with.... well.... WHAT AM I  ?

Am I a Human, an animal, a monkey with a brain ?
What are my thoughts ?
where do they come from ?.... and what are thoughts made of ?
Are thoughts just electrical signals in a computing brain ?
did life just spring up by accident in a mud pool, and I have evolved from that accident ?
Am I simply a chemical  body  ?
Am I some kind of automatic survival machine ? ... that sprang out of nothing intentional.. ?
Is there any meaning, reason or purpose to my being ?  or is the world empty of  any value  or  significance ?
What am I ?

again , let me start by assuming the best
I AM THAT WHICH I CHOOSE.
I AM INFINITY
I AM PERFECT
I HAVE INFINITE ABILITY
I HAVE INFINITE SURVIVAL
I AM THE SOURCE OF EVERYTHING
EVERYTHING IS MY CREATION
I EXPERIENCE WHAT I CHOOSE

Could ANY of those things be true ?
Or am I wishing beyond what is so ?

Also...
then there is YOU ..... are you ?
do you exist ?
are others simply a projection ?.... an illusion ?
Here you are... reading these words...
are you really reading what I have written ?
are you projecting these words ?
Is this really a SOLO conversation ?.... an attempt at SELF REALIZATION ?
are you hoping to read an answer to your own riddle ?
A self made puzzle, a maze of understandings ?
Do I actually exist for you ?... am I an unknown source, a hidden part of your own self ?

Then again... for me.. does anyone actually read what I write ?
Am I writing to the depths of my own self ?
The individual parts of my own self... the .... others ?
at this level are we all really just ONE BEING ?
with parts , individual selves not fully known ?

Or are we all accidental monkeys, in a meaningless universe ?
How can we decide to BE or DO anything with such a fundamental question ?
How can we have a clear operating basis without understanding WHAT WE ARE ?

If we are nothing but Monkeys accidentally evolved from mud...
then life ... existence is meaningless and valueless.....  is that so ?
is that true ?

Is it an EXPERIMENT, a learning experience ?
if so.... for who ?
for the Monkey ?... Monkeys die.....what value  is transfered ?
better survival capability, genetically ?

Is it an Experiment for the infinite... for SOUL or SPIRIT.. for GOD ?
for You, for I ?

If we look at the best...
Then could we understand that Intelligence and thought are spiritual ?
what does spiritual mean ?
are we looking beyond the Monkey or Human Brain ?
Are we looking beyond anything Physical ?
Beyond Matter, Beyond Energy, Beyond Space and Beyond Time ?
Is there a thread of Intelligence working outside of the Physical Universe ?
Is there a learning, a growing a seeing..... an understander ?
Am I that Understander ? ....Are we ?

How can we determine such things ?.... with great certainty ?

Is this an unresolvable puzzle... the eternal puzzle of Mankind ?

What could we determine ?
What could we ever really understand ?
Is this an endless hole, a vortex of unfortunate, inescapable  uncertainty ?

Get stuffed!
I know the answer to that lot.....
'tis easy peasy....

You is a great big scrumptious spirit ... what is spangling all over da universe!
 Life is Magic... sprung out of 'nufinkness... and we is da boss.
so... knock off all that 'unfortunate vortex'  nonsense and  go out and play!


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